I’m trying very hard to make good on my promise and get my pap test done, but it is not going as smoothly as I had hoped. For starters, I tried to contact the office that inserted my Weapon of Sperm Destruction back in ’08 but they won’t see me because my referral expired. I have to make an appointment with my family doctor (which is the problem, because I don’t HAVE one) or go to a walk-in clinic and ask them to get me an appointment with the vagina doctors. This is incredibly annoying, and I can feel untold amounts of rage building up in my spleen as we speak.
I made the stupid appointment for an appointment, and we’ll see what happens. It’s not until May, because that’s the earliest I could get – even for a referral. I suppose I could ask the clinic doctor to take a peak at my uterus for me, but that’s only half my issue – I want a family doctor I can build a relationship with; one that I can go to for regular checkups and prescription refills instead of blindly casting about for the first person in a white coat willing to prop me up and dive in. I don’t WANT to open a new file every time something is wrong or I need more pills to keep me sane. How am I supposed to take charge of my health when I can’t find anyone willing to see me more than once?
I’m beyond pissed off that I can’t find a doctor because I’m not shitting babies with every step I take. I even used the BC Physician Directory to once again see if I could find someone willing to take me, but after eight phone calls and no luck I gave up. The list spat out 18 female doctors* accepting new patients, but none of them would take me. I foamed with rage over this years ago, and I’m still just as upset – it is fucking insanity that I cannot get a doctor to see me regularly because I choose to remain childless.
*: I could and will try for a male doctor next; I just feel more comfortable getting my cervix scraped by a woman. I don’t know why this is, especially considering the last few women who were in there for business not pleasure attempted to feed me the tired “oh you’ll change your mind!” bullshit when I explained that I am the President of Team No Babies. Truth be told, I think male doctors are afraid of my almighty vagina. When I’ve asked to be papped, they suggest I find myself a nice woman doctor, or refer me to someone else. Yeah, that’ll make me feel good about myself – no one wants my vagina on a personal OR professional level.
And people wonder why I’m so scornful towards breeders. It’s their fault I could very well have cancerous cells tap dancing on my fallopian tubes and can’t get them detected before terrible things happen! Stop the insanity! Equal health care for everyone, you elitist assholes!
So much angry. This can’t be good for my empty womb.