one by one

.. they all. fall. down.

i'm coming for you, pentaxjeeppug

I can’t help but feel a little ashamed – this list started out as a way to track those utterly impossible pie in the sky oh look here’s an extra pile of money that I absolutely no other use for kind of things that maybe I would get someday if I happened to find a sugar daddy or my mother finally won the lottery, but I’m slowly making my way through it as I end up with new toys.

Not that I’m complaining, mind you.

As with all of the above purchases, a great deal of justification and fast talking went into this. I got a surprise bonus at work today, which was nice. Ed is getting a bonus next month, and has promised me a chunk of it to do whatever I want. Those two together equaled two thirds of the iMac I’d been eyeing for MONTHS, and after a morning full of waffling and doubt, I took the plunge.

Basically, it was either this or an iPad. I *know* I don’t need an iPad – I’ve promised myself I would wait until the second generation if I get one at all, but I really and truly don’t need one – and my laptop is starting to chunk and do weird things, and it pretty desperately needs a reformat that I don’t dare do. I’ve also really wanted to set up a media PC for quite some time, and now that I have three episodes of Glee to catch up on, it’s as good a time as any.

Now, what am I going to name my Mac?!

it's a boy, i know that much

what’s up down there

Tubal ligation was last night’s hot topic on Twitter, so I thought I’d throw my uterus into the fray. I sort of started the whole exchange (I have a bad habit of being the instigator behind a lot of things, both good and ridiculous) when I mentioned to ZoeyJane that I couldn’t ask, beg, demand, threaten or pay someone to tie my tubes for a multitude of reasons, with “never say never, dearie” being the most prominent and oft-repeated.

It’s been 21 months since I wrote this post about my frustration at being cock-blocked at every turn of my uterus. When I re-read my words, all the rage comes flooding back: fury at being talked down to, disgust that I can’t be allowed to make the choice for myself, additional fury that this is even an issue at all. Aren’t we past the point where the little woman can’t think for herself? This kind of backwards thinking makes my heart ache and fear for the future.

I have no new news to share about my uterus and my struggle to convince someone – anyone – to tie my goddamn tubes already. It’s been almost 2 years, and while I’m not in danger of spitting out children any time soon thanks to my Weapon of Sperm Destruction, it absolutely kills me to know that I’m being denied something I have every right to request simply because someone else doesn’t think I know what I’m doing. My IUD has three years of shelf life left, but I don’t plan to wait that long before I confront the medical system again – I’m waiting for the clinic that did the initial installation to get my referral and call me to schedule my check up, and I’m going to ambush them with my request. I will let you know what happens when I do – if they agree or try to talk me out of it – but I anticipate a fight; one I am more than willing to take to the streets if it’ll get me what I need.

I envision a protest with hilarious signage in my future.

actually, this could be a lot of fun


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