This could be the worst or greatest idea I’ve ever had in my life:

I know you’re supposed to check your boobs/balls frequently for any lumps or suspicious changes, but that doesn’t really work if you’re a melodramatic hypochondriac like I am:

“OH MY GOD I FOUND A LUMP I AM TOTALLY DYING”

“Let me see – where?”

“HERE! CAN YOU FEEL IT? I HAVE SEVENTEEN CANCERS!!”

“.. Kimli, that’s your nipple.”

I’d like to be vigilant about the early signs of cancer, but I am just not that bright. EVERYTHING feels like a lump to me, even things that are obviously not lumpy in any way.

So, someone ELSE should feel my boobs for me. If there is something to be concerned about, it would be apparent to an outside boob feeler – me, I’m very likely to dismiss it as my brain being stupid even if it had a little sign saying “get me checked!” (which I can’t actually do – thank you very much, Vancouver medical scene). I can bring in a neutral third party, have them feel me all over for things that might be scary, and THEY decide whether I should panic or if everything is just super.

Clearly this is nothing less than an awesome idea that will in no way backfire.

Who wants to be my boob feeler?

I thought about not posting today just for the sheer luxury of it, but my heart just isn’t feeling defiant right now. I’m kind of mired in a mild anxiety attack – I’m seriously stressing out about a bunch of stupid little things, and it is balls:

• Got Craft is on Sunday, and I’ve done nothing to prepare
• I’m waiting for a bunch of things to come in the mail and they’re taking their sweet ass time getting here
• My friend Chris is staying with us for a week and I’m worried he will be bored

I think the crafting thing is the biggest issue – I am utterly unmotivated to make anything, and that sucks. When I get home from work, all I want to do is nothing at all – the thought of hauling out my gear and making stuff is just not something I want to do. Tonight should help; I’m going over to Heather’s house and bringing some things to work on. She invited a bunch of us over to watch the ANTM finale, which I could not possibly care less about – but I think I need to get outside of the house, and spending time with awesome people will do that nicely. I usually craft while watching TV, but I haven’t been able to get in front of it for some time now (nor have I really tried, to be honest) so I am counting on tonight to be productive and good for multiple reasons. If I can crank out some product, I will be much less stressed about Sunday – but really, I will be glad when it is Monday.