Okay so I’ve tried really hard to be upbeat for the last couple days both for my own sanity and also to make sure Ed doesn’t freak out and worry that we’ll soon be homeless, but today I am just plumb out of cheer.

I’ve always felt I was being screwed over at the Space Station, but now that I’m facing unemployment it’s become startlingly clear just how large a pickle I am now in.

Things weighing heavily on my mind:

• I don’t get a Record of Employment, as I wasn’t technically employed
• I wasn’t taxed, so I didn’t pay into EI
• They just gave me a new contract stating I’m a consultant who works when work is available and that I wasn’t ever an employee
• I’ve been removed from the support email group so I can’t help our clients or do any work (ie claim any hours)
• I’m the only one of the three people who were NOT made “real” employees who is not getting any work
• I’ve been applying for jobs left and right, but as true to my nature since I don’t have a job after two days of looking I am in full panic mode that I’ll never get another job
• I’m more like my mother than I thought – replace “job” with “apartment”, and I’m exhibiting the exact behaviour she demonstrated in May that had me so incredulous and baffled
• I don’t know what I’m going to do
• So I’m sitting here sobbing pathetically
• I miss my dad
• I both love and hate the month of September

Oh, hell. What am I going to do?