This just in: life isn’t fair.

I am seriously bummed out and demoralized and angsty and sad.

Josh got laid off yesterday. That sucks, and believe me, I can sympathize. Getting laid off isn’t any fun, regardless of the circumstances.

Except less than an hour after Josh was laid off, he got a phone call with a job offer.

I’m happy for him, I really am. But FUCK. I’ve been out of work since October. I’ve sent out countless resumes, been on at least a dozen interviews, and nothing. I had a promising interview almost 4 weeks ago that I’m still waiting to hear about. I had another one that went really well two weeks ago, but again with the waiting. Josh had a second interview on Monday, got laid off on Tuesday, and got an offer from Monday that same day. That worked out awfully well, and is super cool.

SO WHY can’t that happen for me? Where’s my luck? When is it my turn for good fortune? I’ve tried everything – and I do mean everything. Fuck, I gave my resume to the mailman because his son knows a guy. I’ve contacted every agency in town, and the best I was offered was a two-month holiday contract with the one company I don’t want to work for. I have so many skills and I’m so good at what I do – why can’t I find a job?

Just .. fuck.