don’t leave me now

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Two more days until NaBloPoMo is over. Normally posting for 30 days straight wouldn’t really be a challenge for me – I have an awful lot to say – but lately, it’s been difficult. I am, unfortunately, pretty stinking depressed. Things are getting me down in a fantastically large way, and I am struggling against an urge to do nothing but be sad and morose on my website. However, history has shown that being verbally depressed will lead to a significant loss of both readers and friends, so I am trying very hard to avoid telling you all just how down I am. I will spare you the details, but suffice it to say I am not a happy girl. Everything sucks. I am never going to find another job, and it’s going to be 2003 all over again so I might as well just go back to bed for the next decade or so.

So! I am now tasked with cheering myself up. On Friday I can start baking, as I will most likely be done my holiday shopping by that point. We’re having a tree trimming party on Sunday, which is little more than an excuse for me to feed people because I like cooking and stuff so I have a lot of nibblies to prepare. Probably too many, but seriously – what the hell else am I going to do with my time? Nothing, that’s what. Well, maybe finish Super Mario Galaxy. Yeah, it’s incredibly vital to be me right now.

Oi, I almost choked on my lunch.

I will endeavor to completely ignore the fact that I am depressed, so don’t worry. Things’ll be back to normal around here soon enough; just bear with me. How’s tomorrow? I can be normal by tomorrow.

Wait, maybe I should clarify – I can be normal for ME by tomorrow. Don’t suddenly expect me to, y’know, grow up or something, but I can at least hide the woe.

Yes.

Normal.

9 thoughts on “don’t leave me now”

  2. Take a vacation. I mean, a vacation from the job hunting. Decide when you will officially Leave and count down to the day, and then… stop. Take a break. Companies don’t usually hire over the holidays, this is one of the worst times to be out of work – things pick up in late January, from what I understand, as people straggle back to their desks and realize OH MY GOD WE STILL HAVE TO FILL THAT POSITION FOR AN INTERNET SUPERSTAR. Your time will come. So save yourself the misery of feeling like you’re sending resumes off into the void, and make Ed support you in the style to which you have become accustomed, for a little while longer.

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  3. Aw Kimli –

    I know it’s tough when people try to cheer you up and it just makes you feel worse, but I hope I can offer a couple of suggestions that have worked for me.

    1. Exercise. I’m no fitness queen, but just getting outside and getting those happy endorphins going can make you feel that there’s hope. Sort of in the ‘I may be an unemployed loser, but my legs are lookin’ damn good’ way, but hey, if it works…

    2. Volunteer for a charity. Despite the ‘misery loves company’ risk, I’ve found spending time packing boxes for the Food Bank, dishing out meals at a shelter, or walking doggies at the Humane Society makes me appreciate what I have. Sometimes we just need a bit of perspective about our own difficulties. Food? Check. Shelter? Check. Warm fuzzy kitty tummies in need of scratchies? Check.

    Hang in there – the universe can’t resist your fabulousness for too much longer!

    RWS

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  4. Why not take some retail work or something over the holidays? You could make $2000 over the next four weeks easy (and it’s retail, right? I mean *easy*) and probably get some decent staff discounts on clothes, electronics, whatever. Oh, and there’s like a zillion jobs in retail right now. Seen the news? If you have a pulse, you’re in.

    Go for it!

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