doubt

I’m very tired. Non-stop allergy attacks are keeping me up at night, so I self-medicate with extra strength Benadryl to make my skin stop crawling. Sleep is an added bonus until it’s time to get up in the morning – I still haven’t cleared my brain of the drug fog, and I’m afraid that by the time I feel awake enough to function it’ll be time for sleep again. I’m really just feeling run-down all over, which makes me worry I’m going to catch the death flu that’s going around The Lab. I’m already achy and sore of sinus – but is that just my allergies, or am I catching the avian bird sars? I don’t have time for this; I have a potato/sex farm to visit.

So, I’m tired. When I get tired, I get thinkie and down on myself. Today’s topic of introspective self-doubt: do I write too much?

It seems like I check my RSS feeds every five minutes to see if anyone has made a new post, and rarely am I fulfilled with new texty goodness. None of the other blogs I read update nearly as often as I do – I strive for at least one post a day, five days a week (and admittedly often go over my “goal”). Everyone else seems to post once a week; twice if it’s a particularly eventful week, and call it good. Am I a blog posting over achiever? Does the quality of my posts suffer because I update so often? Do I just write too damn much?

Thing is, I don’t know if I’d be happy if I updated any less.

Dear Army of Seven: would you be sad if I only wrote once or twice a week, or would you be glad that there were fewer words to wade through?

20 thoughts on “doubt”

I would be sad. My workdays are so tedious — when a new Kimli entry pops up on the portal it’s a little thrill, for me.

More. Posts.

No one else posts enough. You post almost enough.

I wish I posted more often, but due to work or school or general frumpiness on my part, I fail. I’m getting better though.

Some days I just don’t feel like posting or coding. I don’t know why, but I wish those days would go away and never come back. I think it might be a vitamin thing.

I would be sad. I look forward to your entries, this is one of the sites I check every single day.

I would be distraught…your posts are rays of light!

I love your words! I would definitely be sad with less.

Ditto what meg said.

I would be sad, Kimli. The less missions your Army of Seven gets to go on, the less likely it is that we’ll take over the world.

No, no – keep up the posting!!

I work from home and I am in constant need of stimulation. In my opinion, there are only two bloggers I read who post enough: you and my friend Syd, who spends all day posting things that look like pussy.

uh oh. if you post too much, then I post too much, and I *can’t* post too much… right? right? hello?

damnit, why do I always hear crickets?

no! you and donna keep me laughing – it’s nice to have a different perspective on vancouver, and kimli’s posts make me laugh sooo damn much. even things like the scooter tickets when it seemed like there was no where in hell that you could park your scooter without it not getting ticketed and/or moved by some random person…

MORE.POSTS. I check for new ones between my clients out of hope that you will have posted more stuff about your girl parts, or possibly even snails!! I read your posts out loud to my friends and family! Don’t take away our entertainment!!1!11!!!one

I think you post way too much as it is, and should probably just close the site altogether. I think that’s what everyone wants, and it would be best for the entire internet.

Er, no wait, I mean the other thing… I suck at multiple choice ;[

Blogs are like IRC that don’t disappear when you reboot, so it’s actually easier this way :o

“Cake or Death?”

More words! More Altoids! More anarchistic girl parts!

Your writings have been excellent lately, since joining the working universe.

Benadryl and other common drugs become ineffective for allergies after a short period, 2 weeks or less, then you have to switch to something else. Some of the non-drowsy 24 hour meds are good, but you have to find out how quickly each one becomes ineffective… sometimes 2 weeks, sometimes a year.

Makes notes on when and where you are reacting the most, and check Environment Canada and Weather Channel websites for allergy alerts specific to Vancouver. There’s another problem, moving from a dry climate to Vancouver. It happened to me, and many others used to living a a warmer, drier place, and after two years, I had to either go on heavy drugs & treatments or move to somewhere drier.

Allergy treatments have advanced since this happened to me, but public health care has been Thatcherized, Americanized, screwed over, whatever, so fighting the Beast can be expensive.

Between chemistry experiments, write more!

Ken