I have a thing tomorrow.
I don’t normally write about interviews in advance for fear of jinxing myself, but I’m sure doing exactly that can’t hurt as much as I scare myself into thinking it will.
The thing is a little different than other things I’ve been to – for one, it was an invitation to lunch to meet and discuss. There was no specific thing I’m being called out for, so it’s really .. you know, a meet and discuss. Naturally, I am terrified. I mean, I would be terrified if it was a general interview but because it is a thing I am even more scared than usual.
Of course I hope that a nifty awesome job will come from this, but I am the world’s worst self-pessimist. While I know I should be confidently shouting my skills from the rooftops, I usually think I HAVE no skills and as such, people wouldn’t really want to meet with me to discuss jobs or openings or opportunities of any kind.
So what, if not a job, am I afraid this meet and discuss is all about?
I am afraid:
- They’re going to try to sell me Amway
- They’re going to sit me down and tell me gently but firmly that no one in the industry will ever hire me because:
- I have no skills
- I am not pretty enough
- I’ve been blacklisted from the Vancouver job market, ALL of it
- They’re going to ask if I’ve given thought to accepting the Lord as my own personal Jesus, then break out into synchronized dancing as Depeche Mode plays in the background
- I’m about to be Punk’d
- I’m about to snap back to reality oh there goes gravity oh there goes Rabbit he choked he’s so mad but he won’t give up that easy no he won’t have it he knows his whole back’s to these ropes
- That I won’t be able to get that Eminem song out of my head
Mostly, I am just scared that I don’t deserve to get a good job where I’m treated like a real human being.
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Actually, that Depeche Mode thing would be kinda neat.
Also, you are amazing and beautiful and have skills out the wazoo. And I’m sure that you have a lovely wazoo, also, but I don’t think that will have any bearing on the interview. Unless, you know, it’s that kind of job interview.
I agree with Nee. Don’t worry, be happy, mon…oops, that’s a whole ‘nother post.
Seriously, of COURSE you have the mad skillz, and OF COURSE nothing but good can come of this thing tomorrow. :-)
I felt the exact same way as you last week. It’s hard to go into an interview feeling positive because you may be disappointed. I try to get into a state where I can see the good in it going well or badly.
Good luck with it! Remember that they have no preconceptions about you so you can start fresh when you meet them.
you know Bioware is desperately looking for video game writers??
just a thought! :)
Good luck at the thing!