It seems like only last week I was lamenting the attack on Diversity, Equity, and Inclusion on social media. I know I’m neither American nor a federal employee, but several large, non-government companies have proven they’re willing to kiss the ring and are eliminating the programs that enabled the hiring of anyone other than cis white hetero men. That’s fiiiiine. I’m not worried at all. Why should I be? I’m only:

• A woman
• Queer
• A visible (yet mysterious) minority
• Somewhat mouthy
• Neurodivergent
• Disabled, as far as medical charts go
• Past the age of fuckability
• Newly out of work

I got laid off this morning. It was unexpected, as it always is. I’m still in shock, and the crushing reality of my failures (yes getting restructured out of a job is a personal failing) hasn’t yet hit me – but when it does, I expect to be a right fucking mess.

I don’t know what to do. Is it too early to be fatalistic about my chances of finding a new job? Normal Kimli knows she’s amazing at what she does, but Scared and Sad Kimli is at the helm and she’s got visions of government cheese.

Fuck.